God sent me a text message.
A few months after my layoff, I was still working through questions about my purpose. I had been praying, “God, show me where you want me to be.” Was I supposed to stay home and serve my family full time? Or was I supposed to be working in another organization? One morning as I laid in bed (sick) somewhere in that strange space between being asleep and awake, I received a text message from God. Well, it was actually from a former co-worker and friend, but make no mistake God Himself was in charge of her fingers. My friend explained that she had a job for me. Not just any job, it was a CEO position for a well-known, well-established organization. The position had not been posted yet as the current CEO had not yet left the organization. AND, did I mention it paid very well? The salary was much more than I had ever made in any of my previous positions, ever.
So let me break this down for you.
- I was laying in bed, sick and asleep
- I received a text message about being the CEO of a prestigious organization
- I would be making more money than ever before
- I had no competition for the position
As my mind began racing, trying to make sense of all of this, a scripture came to mind. “Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and He will give you everything you need.” Luke 12:31 This verse is possibly one of the oldest verses in my memory. As a child, we sang this verse in church often, so it is imprinted in my mind and on my heart permanently. But what I love about God’s word is that even the verses that you have heard hundreds of times is given new meaning and deeper revelation in different situations and stages of your life. God was showing me that I did not have to do anything but seek Him. He would provide His best for me, all I had to do was “be still and know that I am God” Psalms 46:10.
Now, here comes the best part: I said NO. After meeting with the Board of Directors a couple of days later, I realized it was not a good fit for my family and I. I did not have peace of mind while considering the position. In my previous years, I had been promoted within every company I had worked for. I was accustomed to climbing the executive ladder, and I liked it. I liked being good at my job, and I liked being recognized and rewarded for it. Why was this different? It was an amazing opportunity! Was I crazy for saying “no”? Maybe. But God, again, had different plans for me. I knew the second I made the decision to decline the job that it was the correct decision. I had peace, and joy.
You see, my friends, you cannot always make sense of God’s plan or purpose. God’s ways are not our ways (Isaiah 55:8). So maybe this was a crazy test exercise of some sort, Would Holly follow God or continue to seek prestige, promotion and money? I believe it was a lesson from God showing me “I’ve got this!” All I know for sure is that God will supply all our needs (Philippians 4:19), in His way (Isaiah 55:8) and for our good (Jeremiah 29:11).
Prayer: Lord, I know that you are for me. Help me to trust you more everyday in every area of my life. Show me areas in my life that I am not letting go and help me release them to you completely. Amen.